Deadline.

I've told myself over and over my deadline is before Christmas.

I have to finish this before Christmas.

Children have a way of making things harder to stick to schedule, especially when you have a 19 month old son.

I haven't been able to write in almost a week.

But I'm dead set on the 15th of December.

It's been almost 9 years, If I put off writing it any longer I will never finish.

I've started to feel the boredom trying to keep up all the continuity and making everything relevant to the story. I have lost the energy I had when I initially restarted.

It will just be first draft, that's all I care about done, but I'm losing time and concentration.

I don't know if I'll make it.

I have poured so much thought into  this story but I am losing steam because of my circumstances.

I want to rise like a phoenix from the ashes, but that new flame isn't catching as quick as I would like.


If I don't finish by the 15-12-2018... I quit.

It was a nice thought...