Tuesday, 11 December 2018

The end is near.

I have had a tumultuous week and my depression and anxiety have ran me ragged, but I'm doing it everybody, I'm actually freaking doing it!

I was stuck awake for 48 hours because I just couldn't sleep, so every waking hour I could write, I did.

I've been consistently writing every day for the past week now and the story has finally reached the point where is no where to go but the end of the installment.

The cut off point of book one of Project Reboot is, currently at the words per day written, one and a half days away from ending.

The build up to the end of Terra Firma is enveloping me with so many emotions, the most prominent being motivation. Complete motivation to finish what I started writing four years ago!

I did a recalculation of the time I first conceived the idea, I was sure that 2009 was less than 8 years ago for some reason... But then my partner promptly reminded me it was almost 10.

...

Ten years ago I coined the title to an idea of a story I had been thinking about. Project Reboot: Terra Firma sounded like something that would be interesting to write, something that I should write. And it took me till the spring of 2014 to start it.

I kept thinking about it, the story, the plot, the absurdity, the fact that I hadn't seen anything like it before and that it came from my own mind.

The influence of world politics and society and my trauma spurred me on to write something that means something... to me.

It really doesn't have to mean anything to anyone else. I just hope for someone to read it and wonder; Why on earth did they write this?

And that question itself is valid.

I hope to raise questions, I want people to seek answers, and above all I hope someone will learn something about themselves and take a positive action from it.

I know I had a mental breakdown and protested I would never finish, but depression is an incredibly stupid curse.

I can already see the finish line on the horizon, the sun is glaring across the azure sky, I'm winning this one person race, to reach the end.

I'm excited, and my only wish is for at least a few people to see why that might have been.

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